sad
bitter
hurt
overwhelmed
questioning
mad
confused
alone
tired
These are the emotions I have had for a week now. I do not know how to rid myself of them. These emotions always come with tears. It is the same old things, bringing up the same old things. The same old things will not change. That hurts. I have to. Don't know how.
I needed a break from it all, from the constant ramblings in my head, from the to-dos, from the hurt. So I had pie.
Noah is sick. And it was just him and I yesterday. Me in tears, him coughing. I'd had enough,I needed something good from this day, one thing good. " Noah you wanna get pie?" (Noah loves pie) I said, "I think pie is probably good medicine for a cold." Noah agreed.
God I'm gonna have pie with my boy right now, and I need you to let it be just him and I right now, turn everything else off.
Hot apple pie, ala mode and time just looking at my boy. "Mommy, your right pie is good medicine," he says as he looks at me with those big brown eyes. "Yes Noah, pie is good medicine."
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Denise, I'm so sorry you're having a rough time. I can understand in my own way about all those internal feelings. Focus your mind on the Word. One thing that so helps me when I'm struggling with things inside or thoughts is quoting a verse over & over in my head until the thought or bad feeling is gone. If it comes back in 5 seconds, quote the verse again. There's something amazing powerful about the Word..LIFE! Go back & listen to the words again of that CD you gave me. The song, "I will lift my eyes." Worship...soak it in. Shut out all that is you & enter into His presence. I know that you know what I mean too..as a worship leader. I hope I haven't been too preachie but encouraging to you today. That song has greatly touched my heart. I will be praying for you. Oh, & love the Pie idea! Yummy!
ReplyDeleteit was good to talk this morning. things will be better (after saturday!). i love you, and come soon!
ReplyDeleteI am glad you enjoyed pie with Noah and you had something good from the day. I will be praying for you!
ReplyDeleteWhat a sweet post, Denise. I'm so sorry to hear you've been struggling this week. I'm glad you took a minute to have a sweet moment with your boy and just let the Lord love you both up in comfort.
ReplyDeletePraying for you, friend.