Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Get Out

Two old friends enemies have shown up and taken up residence at my place again, Anxiety and Fear.

They use to live here. They use to run this place with their best friend, the leader of their pack, Lies.

I 'd finally had enough of them a few years ago (and by enough I mean 31 years of shacking up with them). I kicked them out. Took Life back.

I don't know when it happened, but they showed up. And I entertained them. They are so familiar.

I can see now that they have unpacked a few things. I see their crap (that's what it is) laying around.

I don't want them here.
So this is how it feels at the rock bottom of despair
When the house that I built comes crashing down
And this is how it feels when I know the man
that I say I am
Is not the man that I am when no one's around
This is how it feels to come alive again
And start fighting back to gain control
And this is how it feels to let freedom in
And break these chains that enslave my soul

I refuse to be locked up in here like a prison cell
where all I ever get is a meal and four walls
I used to be just fine in here but not anymore
gonna break through these steel bars

So tell me how it feels when the tables start to turn
And you find yourself at the losing end
Tell me how it feels, you're not welcome here
'Cause I'm tired of pain and I'm tired of sin

I refuse to be locked up in here like a prison cell
where all I ever get is a meal and four walls
I used to be just fine in here but not anymore
gonna break through these steel bars

I won't let you win
I have no doubt
I don't want you in
So get out, get out

I refuse to be locked up in here like a prison cell
where all I ever get is a meal and four walls
I used to be just fine in here but not anymore
gonna break through, gonna break through

I refuse to be locked up in here like a prison cell
where all I ever get is a meal and four walls
I used to be just fine in here but not anymore
gonna break through these steel bars
Steel Bars, by Jill Phillips

11 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry to hear about the spiritual warfare. Clearly you are a threat to the enemy. You are living victoriously in Christ and the enemy is not happy about that.

    The other night I couldn't sleep and I thought of something, and I wish I had written it down, but it goes something like this. "Anything that is holding me captive has no legal ground in my life". Satan has no right to trap us in a prison; the bail was posted, we're free to go.

    Praying that you find victory and freedom from these lies soon and, remember how much your Savior loves you. Thank you for allowing the Lord to use you to be such an inspiration through your blog.

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  2. DIVINE POWER TO DEMOLISH STRONGHOLDS. That is what is in you. We gather around you (be it way too far away) and agree with you... Insomnia, restlessness, anxiety, fear, and crap, be gone in the awesome and able name of Jesus! Denise, you are robed in victory and drenched with His favor. Praying for you to be on the other side of the breakthrough!

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  3. I know those enemies well; they've plagued me many times. Oh, how I hate them.

    And yet I'm grateful for the weakness they reveal in me, weakness that causes me to press in to Christ. He alone is life and freedom. We have every reason to hope in Him.

    I don't know your exact struggles, but I'm praying for you today.

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  4. Denise,

    How funny I was just reading a chapter in my marriage book about the spiritual warfare our marriages and families are constantly dealing with. Lifting you and yours up in prayer!

    Love and Hugs ~ Kat

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  5. Aw, Denise. (((hugs))) for you. I've been there. Maybe I am there. You will get through. Praying.

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  6. Praying, praying, praying....

    He is your freedom. He is your strength. He is your peace.

    Standing with you as you kick those ugly enemies OUT!

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  7. i love you. just that. i love you.

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  8. Those guys used to live at my house full time, too. :( One of the books that has really been helpful to me is Overcoming Fear, Worry and Anxiey by Elyse Fitzpatrick. It is based on God's word and really insightfully written.

    I will be praying for you. We are more than conquerors in Christ. :)

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  9. I remember when you sang this in church and it brought you to tears. Good song. You did well.

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  10. Hi Denise ~

    I am praying for you. Sometimes those same things get into my mind and then bury themselves in my heart. And it's hard to get the out of there. I will pray that God gives you encouragement through your brothers and sisters in Christ to fight for peace in your life. And I pray that God gives you the peace that passes all understanding. It's hard as a woman, as a mother, as a child of God to fight for yourself and that's what we're all here for. To fight with you. You are loved!!!

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  11. I've lived with those enemies as well. I recognize them sooner now. Have you read "Calm My Anxious Heart"? It is one of the best (and most practical) books I've read on this subject. We did it as a ladies study at my church, and then another group did a study on it when we lived in Korea. Christ is bigger than every fear (I know you know that...).

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