Saturday, September 15, 2007

Miss you everyday

Today we each picked out a balloon in our favorite color, went to Bass Lake, and let them go.
We have done this for the last 6yrs on Sept 15th, the day that our son Caleb Michael went home to Heaven. We take a moment to remember, to mourn, and to celebrate.
We remember 14 sweet weeks of caring him in my belly, praying Psalm 139:13-17 over baby, hoping for a boy as God had written his name on our hearts, anticipating our family becoming 5, dreaming of baby's future. We remember this day in 2000 when God took him home. We remember how He graciously let us see him, hold him in our hand, pray with him, sing over him, love on him. We remember how God provided our every need, as he took care of every detail, and covered us with his "grace upon grace."
We take a moment to mourn our loss- There is always someone missing from our laughter, from the dinner table, from wrestling matches on the living room floor, from family photos, from life here. We need a moment to say we wish you were here.
And we take a moment to celebrate that we have eternity with Caleb when we get home. We rejoice and find comfort that our son lives in God's "love better than life."

Glory Baby by Watermark

Glory baby you slipped away as fast as we could say baby…baby..
You were growing, what happened dear?
You disappeared on us baby…baby..
Heaven will hold you before we do
Heaven will keep you safe until we’re home with you…
Until we’re home with you…

Miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there’s a
day when we will hold you
We will hold you
You’ll kiss our tears away
When we’re home to stay
Can’t wait for the day when we will see you
We will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you
‘till mom and dad can hold you…
You’ll just have heaven before we do
You’ll just have heaven before we do

Sweet little babies, it’s hard to
understand it ‘cause we’re hurting
We are hurting
But there is healing
And we know we’re stronger people through the growing
And in knowing-
That all things work together for our good
And God works His purposes just like He said He would…
Just like He said He would…

I can’t imagine heaven’s lullabies
and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing, heaven is your home
And it’s all you’ll ever know…all you’ll ever know…


  1. I have nothing to say, Denise, but thank you for letting us share this with you.

  2. God bless you and your family, Denise. What beautiful, beautiful words. Saying some special prayers for you today.

  3. came here through Taras blog --I am totally crying here - what a precious post - praying for your family

  4. Denise,
    The picture of your family and balloons brought a smile to my face. What a wonderful God that we serve--and how He brings us together even through the Blog world. I am glad to see you remembering and honoring your son with your family. Despite the loss of laughter, and all the areas of your life where he is missed---even if he could, he would not choose to come back because he has found ultimate peace, ultimate grace, and ultimate love in the hands of our Lord and Saviour. Grace to you and your family. Please do keep in touch.

  5. What a beautiful tribute! I was touched reading your post today. Thank you for sharing.

  6. Denise, I cried while reading this posting. I'm so sorry...but rejoicing with you that He's in Heaven with the Father. What a sweet way to remember him. I have a Caleb myself and your post about your Caleb really touched my heart.

  7. I love that song... it makes me cry every time I hear it! I have walked through 3 miscarriages and infertility with my sister over the last 5 years, so I know the depth of feeling that comes with those words.
    It's so good to know where he is today... and that there will be a happy ending to this story.
    Thanks so much for sharing.

  8. I'm sorry, that's got to be hard to do ! Praying for you ! I have an older brother or sister in Heaven. I can only hope that maybe they look like something me ! But some day will we all be together :-) !!

  9. Denise,
    I just left a comment over at Tara's for my "Best Blog Moment" under her 200th post and it was about you---I hope you go over and read it.
    Thank you for sharing you life with me!! I have been truly blessed.

  10. Me, too.
    I think of and pray for families who celebrate birthdays on Sept. 15, 2000----I pray that they will know how precious life is indeed and even more so how precious eternal life is.
    I am so grateful our paths crossed.